That, which is written down.
Will become the evidence of one's conviction......


Twisted up.....

"mY mind is always filled with twisted ideas that i long to act out......
Sanity is what's holding be me back.......Consceince is what keeps me sane......"

wHat a strange thing to say when i'm at work.....in the office......


wHat triggerred such thought is the emptiness that i go through every day......it begins at 7:45am and, with luck, it ends at 5:00pm.......


hOw much F*cked-up can it get.........though i hear a small voice screaming at the back of my mind.....

"F*cked-up!? yOu haven't even begun to see what f*cked-up really means!"

Hence, i shut out the voice and continue my pondering......


sOmeone once told my fortune.......her exact words were...

"You tend to think too much...."

rIght.....interesting concept.......for all i know, i don't think enough.......
sHe has a point......


oFten i find myself thinking up the most ridiculous thoughts...... aNd getting drowned in them......


yEt i ever so often, i do it, as it to torture myself.....
mAybe it's the only way i could escape this so-called "reality" i now live in....


bEen having dreams of people whom i've met earlier in my life. oNe dream in particular came as somewhat of a surprise.....i never though i'd dream about her anymore....but i know some parts of me longed to hear her voice and see her smile again.


iF only the dream was reality. bUt who knows if it isn't.......


sUch an ending to a never endED story. wOuld have been better if it actually happened in this "reality".


oNe of those dreams you've had right up till the end.
oNe of those dreams that you are sure of what's happening.
oNe of those dreams that you know everyone in it, and how they are realated.
oNe of those dreams, which will have your mind all twisted-up when you finally wake up....


yOu find your emotions all mixed-up while you dip in you own sweat....