Monday, October 31, 2005

Pholosophy of Life 101...

Never Follow on blindly without Questioning...

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Chasing Shadows

Left me lying here scarred

My blood flow down with tears

My mind is empty from the pain I feel inside

I wish I wouldn’t live through this

I wish I were dead

You fucked my heart up

Sucks that I still feel for you till now

Torn apart and broken up so many times

Death awaits me at the corner…

This really sucks inside

So now here I am reminiscing about the time we shared

While I’m chasing shadows down the streets

Trying to find whatever I’ve lost in this

I couldn’t understand how I could’ve become like this

Chasing shadows is what I do now

Chasing the shadows of what was……

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Is your birthday day 29 of the month?
Your Life
You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so
routine job is not your
interest. You have great ideas and fantastic
imagination. You often feel
tired of things and people around you.
Your Love
You can tell what's in the mind of another person
just from looking into
his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and
these are the cause of fights
between you and your lover.
Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your


Food For Thought?

These days, i'm often skeptical about these things. How certain dates can affect the personality and behaviour of people. How certain stars are more compatible with each other than others. i really don't see how this could actually affect a person in how they act and think.

Back in high school, i used to have my head burried deep books about astrology. No, those aren't the ones about comets or nebulas and all. Those are of astromony, if you please. Astrology is about the life, love, career, friendship, etc... of the horoscopes. Back then, i could remember the order, element, characteristics, personality and houses of all the horoscopes. I was so into it, that i spent my free time digging for more input on the internet.

Come to think of it, it was, and sometimes, still is fun to meet a person, guess his/her horoscope and later finding out that you were right. It's no wonder why many have taken up astrology as a walkthrough in how to communicate better with others around them. Especially when it comes to finding their soul mates.


i switched on my PC at work this morning and, as usual, logged onto Oh lookie, some has posted an article of the bulletine board. So i opened it and read.

Is your birthday day 29 of the month? what is it about this time......

"You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel tired of things and people around you. " i read.... i'm phsychic now.......great.....then why do i not have any idea about what lotto number they are going to pick next. "Life's exciting", right, but responsibility comes first. "great ideas and fantastic imagination" other words....i'm delusional? i guess so. About feeling tired about things and people around me, well, if you were in my shoes, you just can't help it.

so i read on.......

"You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination."

i read the first sentence, stared into the eyes of my collegue...*TOOOOOOO------------------* and this was what i saw *BLANK*......and i believe she was about to call the looney bin on me. Paranoid? Jealous? Who are you to judge me? Are you out to get me? Why are you staring at me like dat!? Are you undressing me with in your mind!? You must be!! Who are you!? NO! Don't Look at ME!!!! Stop persecuting me!!!!!!!!! Wait! You're after my girl aren't you!? AREN'T YOU!?!? Why you little....(tries to stranggle you but bumps into the monitor....*BOINK!*)......

Right.......errrr........i guess there's some truth in it sometimes. But why settle for what people believe you to be? If you think you are what you read, start living differently. Go against it! Break free!


Saturday, October 15, 2005

Honestly...i HATE cats!

Despite me using blackcat as a my nick, i'm actually more of a dog person. In fact, i despise cats.

If you ask me Why? Well, all i can say is, I don'T know either.

Maybe it was being scratched by one when i was 4. Or maybe it was cause one ate my goldfish and later, my turtle. Or even because they tend to make such annoying noises and start playing tag on my roof whenever mating season comes around. All i know is, I HATE 'em!

I recall an incident i witness when i was younger which never fails to amuse me everytime it comes to mind. It happened on a sunny afternoon when i got so bored, i decided to take a walk around my neighbourhood. i was walking along minding my own business and enjoying the cool afternoon breeze, when i suddenly noticed 3 of the neighbourhood dogs ganging up on a cat.

After chasing it around the block a few times. 2 of the dogs managed to overtake the cat and were getting ready to attack it from the front as the other chased the cat towards them. It all happened so fast, than in a leap of distress, the cat jumped over the two dogs in its way, without noticing the drain behind them!

Next thing i saw, was the cat plunging into the drain with a hugh Splash! The dogs seemed surprised. Later, the cat emerged, damped from the drain water and ran off.

I couldn't stop laughing.

Recently, i came across this picture on the net...

 go Masturbate...kill all the cats!

Friday, October 14, 2005

OMG...They've done it.....

I've noticed something going on between them for quite sometime now. But all odds were against them. Everyone could fee they feelings for each others. No one dared to confront them
about it... And even if they did, i doubt they'll get an answer anyway.

Then, it happened......

it was just another normal day, i was walking down the corridor. happily humming the tune that i've been listening to on my computer at my desk earlier. Nothing could've prepared me for what i was about to see next...

i was working my daily rounds about the premises, as usual. Checking the locks. Feeling the air-conditioning. Everything was normal. Until i came to the dark corridor that led to the wash room. And there they were......doing it. I was shocked! They were so intimate with each other. so much that they didn't even notice me standing there.

Chances like this do not come often. Thus i did what anyone would've done in a situation like this.....i drew my digital camera and took a shot....

......and they didn't even know


i guess something in them finally snapped! It's inevitable..... after having to work so close to each other with those emotions and desire attached.


very close indeed......



Chairs these days.......pif............

Wednesday, October 12, 2005



其实也不是第一次接触它了。 中学时,很常都会碰上这行字。 都是朋友在拒绝更进一步交往时利用的理由。

难道一对朋友,混得很熟时,就真的不能发展成为清吕吗? 其实我是认为未必吧。 他们都说,太熟的话,走在一起会怕破坏彼此的感情。


如果真的混得很熟的话,那应该也会知道对方的生活的点点滴滴吧。 那样,不就是了解对方吗? 我认为,一段感情中,最重要应该就是相互的了解。 互相了解方法也就只有相互的沟通。 换句话说,混得很熟,不就是可以无话不谈吗? 为什么又会无法交往?


Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Footsteps Erased...

Things are always changing around us. Childhood friends moving away. Family members passing on. Close friends migrating to other countries...

So many things can change ins such a short time. Most of them happen under our noses without us realizing till one, suddenly, you notice the difference.

Recently, I've been noticing more and more of these changes around me. Could it be development? Does it mean improvement? All i know is, many things that had been a part of my life growing up are slowly disappearing. That cherry tree in our neighbourhood, which my buddies and I used to build our, so-called, "tree-house" in is gone. The memories of us hammering away in the hot Sunday afternoons is now a pile of grass. Even those buddies of mine had moved out of the neighbourhood.

Even the system of the High School i used to go to had been changed. For the better? Maybe. But it pains me to see the things that i have come to cherish change so much over such a short time. The association that i was part of, that changed me from that quiet, shy kid into the out-going person i am now was gone. It hurts...... they've murdered it..... So much has changed since the last time i was there.

It hurts when people, who you know, who you love or learnt to love, who you didn't know you loved, pass on. It hurts even more when you've wronged them and didn't get a chance to apologize to them. The guilt never ends...

Sometimes we despise change. Yet, there's nothing we can do, but learn to live with it. Hoping things Do, indeed, take a turn for the better.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Something to say......

This is the first time I've ever tried to start a blog outside friendster so I hope the world will go a bit easy on me.

Anyways...Hi there! Welcome come to my blog. It's pretty much empty now but I'm sure I will find more inspiration to write in here soon.